Liquifatic Flamification

-School is upon us once again. Summer's over and it's time to drag our lazy carcasses back into our respective institutions. This is usually the time where old friendships finally fade away and new ones emerge from their ashes. It's especially so if you're going to a whole new school all together. It was bad enough in my old days to realize that one of my buddies had a completely different schedule than me, but the killer was always having a different lunch shift. Heaven forbid you end up alone during those 20 minutes of glorious reprieve. I digress. A new school, that's where I'm going. Officially called Louisiana Tech university, it's common name is simply Tech. It's a beautiful place out in the middle of nowhere. Literally. Lucky for me, we only live about an hour away from campus. I went to the Freshman Orientation last week and I met a few people from out of state. WHO DROVE! One girl I took a liking to, Jolie', had a 5 hour drive. She was a giggle girl, very lively. We met while we were bowling in the alley under the bookstore. That is, there were actual bowling lanes underneath the bookstore. Not to mention like 50 Billiard Tables. Hey, it was either bowling or the rave in the cafeteria. Glowsticks and all. I opted for the less sweaty, creepy alternative. I think I skipped ahead though. Ok, so the Orientation was 3 days long, but I went for 2 days. It was a nice experience, got to sleep in some dorms, had a few fabulous meals, walked about 100 miles though. AND it was blazing hot. But the hours of sun were broken up by short periods of inside activities, one of which included registering for Fall classes. The only reason I went was to register, but now I have a newbie knowledge of where many of the buildings are located which is always nice. And then there was the night show in the auditorium. It was 3 hours long, but very very well done. After that was the rave and bowling. Bowling is fun, and now I get to practice. I should say I need it too! Oh, and I met this one group of church people. They were very nice and I stopped to talk to them when the time came for all the campus organizations to set up stands and stuff. They gave me a popsicle and a paper to fill out if I wanted, and I had to think for a second. I'm not very religious right now and I had to decide weather or not I wanted to take this paper from them. I did, but my had was sticky from the popsicle so I took the paper, told the guy I'd be back, and went to wash my hands. I came back a little while later and the guy was surprised that I actually returned. I felt nice making that good impression on him the first day. And actually the next day, I didn't have anything to do for a while, as everyone went to go tour the dorms while I had to go get a form for one. It only took a minute and I had time to kill, so I walked. I met the guy from the day before and his friend, who happened to be blind. I went with them to the campus post office and then back to their ministry HQ. It's a fabulous place, a huge house, just gorgeous. Yep, it was cool. He also escorted me back to the Tonk too. (Tonk - Cafeteria, named so b/c it used to be a Honky Tonk) Whoops, I wrote a lot on just that....Lets move on..

-Video games are great, especially when you can interact with people all over the world in them.

-Have you ever wanted to know a secret so badly, and then you found out and it made your stomach churn? That's what happened to me a little while ago. I was talking to someone I know and found out a lot of stuff that just kills me inside. Of course, I'm dealing with it as hard as I can, trying to squish the little bug in me before it explodes. It's 50/50 right now, I still have that unpleasant feeling, and stray thoughts that make me absolutely shiver, but I have to stop. I can't be such a bleeding heart anymore, that's how you get taken advantage of. That doesn't mean I'm going to be a horribly cold-hearted person from now on, it just means I have to grow a tough skin. I've always been a weak person emotionally. It doesn't take too much to make me start feeling whatever, such as this occasion. I always cried a lot as a kid, my mom always told me that tears don't do anything and that boys don't need to cry. Of course, that never helped. I'm just an emotional person, but there's a difference between healthy emotional and weak emotional. I think I'm in the weak section. I need to toughen up and start feeling less. That's how you survive in the real world. So next time I talk to her, I'm going to have to straighten some things out. Just to make it easier. But I will tell you that she wont be my friend for very much longer considering the nature of what I've learned.

-I was listening to the CD that Cait made for me as my graduation present and the music just put me in a great mood. But mainly, it made me think about how to go about relationships now. It's difficult to put into words, its just an essence I feel about it now. I like it very much though, and I'm sure my lady friend will too!

-Gotta go to sleep now....sorta. I'll try to post more often after I take my final ok kiddies? Anne and Zee will come back too, so start your back reading to remember the story. Toodles!