Night Riot

So tonight I made a movie....well I was in one and helped make it....so hopefully that'll be up sometime soon. I love you guys and I hope you're all doing well. I'll post more later I promise!

Slide Show

I hate the dorms. Seriously. I tried getting to bed at 10:30 since I was up all night Saturday but my attempt failed miserably. First I had to wait for my roomate to finish his movie. Then, as soon as the lights go out, there just happens to be a pellet gun fight in the hallway. After that came the loud booming music through the walls and then random beating against the floor. So here I sit in this computer lab, unable to sleep with lots on my mind. It's been quiet some time since I last blogged, things just tend to get away from me when im on campus so I apologize to anyone who still reads this. If it's any consolation I have much to talk about.

Since my previous post I have gotten myself a counselor here on campus to help me out a bit. It's been going well in my opinion but its just a little slower than i'd like it to be. I'm going to be meeting with the main man at my ministry soon and everyone says that talking to him helps a bunch. I look forward to it, but i've got to wait for him to come back first. I still get the overwhelming feeling of loneliness at times and it's still as much of a bummer as always, but now i've discovered my way of coping with it. It happens to be taking walks in the dead of the morning. Somehow it helps me feel better.

I'm still having problems with friends here. Its not the lack of them though, its more of a trust thing. It's something that I am aware of and hopefully since I do know this I can start to fix it. I wish I had some help though.

There's this girl Erin that's been a source of concern for me lately. The problem is I want to be friends with her but she takes on the demeanor of a wall when it comes to me. She's buddy buddy with plenty of people but everytime i even try to ask how she's doing she gives me very short responses and doesnt even look at me when she does. I get the feeling that she's made some preconcieved notion about me and wants nothing to do with me even though i've done nothing to her. It's really irking me a lot and I wish I could explain it better here. But I cant type all of my thoughts which is a shame so apologies again.

Ok, so maybe I dont have a lot to talk about but it's 2:30 in the morning so at least cut me some slack. I really want to type more but I dont know where to start with the rest of things. It would take so long to get it all out in my current condition so maybe in the next post.